Thanks for your reply Sky. My husband is well aware of what happened to me. He feels like that I need to get on with my life, because that happened so long ago. I am just not able to do that though. My husband is a very affectionate person, and that is a problem as well. I want him to be affectionate towards me, but I do not want to grabbed and gropped all of the time. He does it in front of everyone and anywhere. I have told him on many occasions about it. He has had me so upset at times that I just break down and cry. Knowing all of this, he still continues to do this. Don't get me wrong, I love my husband very much. I would be lost at times without him. I feel guilty as times though when I tell him to stop, because he is so sick. My husband is awaiting a heart transplant, and so I really scared when I do say things to him. I feel like at times that I am losing my mind. I am just really confused and I don't know what to do.

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