Thats sounds like an extreme struggle, that you are dealing with amazingly. Unfortunately for me though, if I take break I'll have to epeat, which means me being unable to escape my family life..... To be able to be free, I need to have an okay study record, but it is so difcult to alll things at once, at the moment I am trying so hard to re-find myself, re-find my friends and distance myself from my once partyin' life style. However, with too much me time I feel depressed and removed from my peers, but with them I feel unhappy as well. Taking a break has helped but it means that my study is down the drain and my anxciousness for my friendship group is increased.