Could you please try and help me understand why you want to hurt your therapist as much as she hurt you?

I don't understand that mindset. I mean, it's clear that you are hurt and very angry. It seems that you would want to work on that. You know, making yourself happy instead of making others hurt too.

I totally get the loner thing by the way, but I gotta admit, some women can be really cool and fun.

I hope you find some peace and joy.