Thank you Korin for your kind and though provoking reply
I have read and reread what you have shared with me.
I have resisted all my parts, never honored them, feared them, denied them, tried to mute them and yet they persist and surprises happen. I have never accepted myself in parts and hence never accepted who I am.
I haven't looked at that part of my bedroom since I put up the shadow box on the bookcase. In fact, I moved my pillows to the other side of the bed and arise in the mornings on the opposite side where the bookcase is. If I happen to glance at the shadow box, it grays out and I can't really see it. It's been up about a week now.
I am tempted to take it down and yet, I can't seem to get to that side of the room to take it down. It's like there is a gray veil covering that side of the room preventing me from penetrating it to get it taken down.
The feelings now when I think about it are deep shame, so that conficts with why I put it up in the first place. Have been having intense emotions over the last two months, not sure where they came from or why I am having them, but out of these feelings came the urge to put up the shadowbox.
It all is very confusing to me.
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Originally Posted by Korin
It sounds like that part of you that changed the room around has somehow gained the courage and the confidence to show itself. The room change is it’s way of making itself known. It probably took this part a long time to find the courage to do that. I see it as a positive thing - a healing thing. This part of you feels safe now and is able to express itself in this beautiful way.
If other parts of you are not happy or comfortable with the room changes, perhaps some negotiation can help. Maybe allowing the other parts to add something to the room that represents them would help.
If the room changes again, don’t fret. That part has had their say and is happy to allow other parts to do the same. Other parts may have helped the part who changed the room in the first place. Sounds like some parts are definitely working together - this is always a good thing.
Try to simply go with the flow. I found meditation helpful. It helped me to be more calm and flow with the events allowing parts to take turn in expressing themselves.
The scariest thing about all this is the not knowing. Not knowing why things happen or change is scary. Being prepared to go with the flow allows them all to express themselves and it makes life easier. |