Thanks, zoo. Hey, do you feel like we're the only ones here right now, LOL?
I meant the talking about the Self was confusing, not that I'm tired of my thread about my therapy. I guess you understood that.

I process so much all the time from my sessions and it is very difficult right now. I wish I could have therapy every day so I could get somewhere quicker and get my questions answered. Some questions have no answers, though. I have the idea that if I write and write, I will find the answers, but it doesn't work that way. My heart and brain are so much in conflict with each other that I can't take it anymore. I want to get all these feelings out already, but then I go into therapy and avoid the issues when T asks me something. I hate that! I'm frustrated. I don't want to be my Self, or myself, or whatever.