I don't know what my problem is. I want to just grab my dog and get in my car and drive to the other side of the country and start life as a different person.
I already quit my job and just went back to school to be a nurse. I just graduated as a nurse. However, I still fantasize about leaving my husband. He is the nicest person in the world, but I still don't want to be married to him anymore. It could be that his family obligations are driving me insane. His aunt and uncle took him in to raise him when his parents died. Their son and daughter both moved pretty far away once they finished school, so my husband is the one that stuck around to take care of the aunt and uncle. His uncle passed about a year ago and now his aunt is left and she is quite needy. She needs a LOT of attention for her dramatic fantasies and such. I am used to a very self-sufficient family. We do not need mounds of attention. We do not manipulate for attention. We love one another from afar. His family is the opposite...well, his aunt is. She makes me crazy! But here we are, as we are the only ones that live nearby, we are the babysitters.
I feel horrible that I feel this way. My husband is bound by duty to take care of her and to forego his life and his time off to do whatever she wants to do. He is a very selfless person.
So why did he want to marry me? I am so miserable and I feel like an ***** for wanting to escape this. I am tired of family obligations for all of our free time. I just want to run, start a new life somewhere else. I feel so miserable and all I want to do is get some kind of time away from him. He used to travel quite a bit for work but he has not gone anywhere for weeks...so I have had no break from him. I need my time alone to recharge and I am definitely not getting it now.
I feel so trapped.
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