Being alone so much stresses me out. It makes me even more depressed and anxious than I already am. It is a challenge trying to keep myself sane to be honest. Thinking about my future always makes me anxious. I want to audition for this tv show but I'm not sure if I will since it's in new York and I'm in d.c. I think if I went there I would do really well but I couldn't even drag myself to go see a movie I've been wanting to see since it came out. Well, I'm going to try to relax now if that's even possible.