Update:

Things are getting a little better. I haven't been as anxious lately, though until things blow over with work I will still have my moments, I'm sure. My appetite has been a little better, and my sleep, while not totally back to what it was before, is improving.

So one of my jobs (the one that provides me with a place to stay) basically told me they would give me 2 options: terminate now, or go on for the next 30 days as if nothing happened and write my resignation letter just saying that I'm moving on to better things. Do you think they are trying to coerce me here or what? I don't want to stay with them regardless, not after the last couple of weeks, but the whole thing just seems kind of screwed up to me.

I attribute a lot my improvement as of late to practicing mindfulness, and reaching out to friends who care about me and I care about them. That has probably been helping me a lot. I also checked out an Al-Anon meeting. My mother unexpectedly died of liver cirrhosis when I was 19 and people have always told me I should go to those meetings to help deal with it. I've also been going out for walks and visiting lakes, just trying to get away and have some 'me' time that doesn't revolve around school or my work. It's helping, but I am in a transitional phase right now and it's going to be a while I think before I can settle back into a comfortable existence.

When I feel overwhelmed in instances like recently, that is when I tend to have false beliefs about myself or just become really unkind toward myself. My self-talk is just generally negative sometimes. People are surprised when they hear this because I do have a lot of accomplishments in my life that one should be proud of, but I've learned that success just means you've reached a goal; it doesn't mean you're any better off than anyone else, that your problems are any easier (though people think they must be).

I'm still human, and I am still a developing professional trying to figure out this thing called life. I have done a lot of work on myself over the years but I still have a lot to do, and probably always will.