It is about being in the moment sometimes SolutioninProcess,

Perhaps a few Al-Anon meetings may help. You could have some unsettled feelings that you are not aware of yet.

Being unkind to yourself because of being overwhelmed is a common response, I wanted to say normal but I don't think anyone is really normal, everyone has struggles and issues they deal with, Im not really sure there is a normal, but I do think there are normal responses. In your job, you sort of lost the control. If you do make the change and finally move on and find another place to be productive, you will feel better about yourself.

And your right, reaching goals does not mean that you have successfully escaped from the challenges of life, that will always be there. But what you can change is your response to yourself because that will help you through lifes challenges. You are going to be goal setting for the rest of your life, that is participating in life and it isn't about being better than anyone else either. Having a goal to be better than others is not really a goal, a good goal is just working on reaching all your potential and accepting that at times your are not going to be perfect and some things can and will come harder to you, while other things may be easier.

And that" me" time does help, you have to learn to love yourself and give yourself credit. The mindfulness is about that. It is not all about work and school, it is enjoying yourself too. Do you know that some people really don't know how to enjoy themselves? They sometimes feel that if they aren't productive then they aren't worth it. But part of being productive is about taking time out to enjoy yourself, enjoy things around you. You have to learn to do that, many people are very good at punishing themselves. Perhaps you had learned that from your mother without realizing it. That was her life not yours, your going to be different, your making different choices, your choices.

Yes, you are just human, give yourself a break, cause your not going to be perfect. And your going to be trying to figure your way through life as long as you live so dont project, just live it.

Open Eyes