(((((Mary Alice)))))))

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time right now. It's so hard to keep going sometimes, isn't it? BUT - you have to keep going. Why? Because, believe it or not, people WILL miss you. It may feel like it, but you're not alone. I'm sorry that your husband has treated you shabbily over a pack of cigarettes. Why are you staying with him?

I'm sorry about work, too. Trust me when I say we've all been there. There's an *** in every company, and an *** will bother you at least every 10 minutes if you work in anything like retail. You really can't get away from them. What you have to change is your perspective on these jerks. Say to yourself, "Hey, I know I did a good job. The hell with the rest of these yahoos." The fact that you were up till 3am working on inventory shows your dedication and hard work. Not many other people would do that.

You sound like you need some serious alone time away from work and your husband. Try finding an hour or so a day, or even just a few minutes where you can be alone with your thoughts where no one is demanding ANYTHING from you. Go to the library and read a book on the way home from work. Even just taking the long way home and driving around can be very head-clearing. Yell about your stupid co-workers and even dumber clients. I do this every day now so that I don't end up losing my temper to this one complete ***** I work with. Works great! I say everything to myself that I'd say to her, complete with swearing. Helps me get over the initial anger and frustration.

Don't do anything to yourself, hon. We all love you here and I'm sure every last one of us wishes right now that we could put our arms through the screen and give you a great big hug.

You are not alone.

some of it's magic
some of it's tragic
but i had a good life all the way......
~jimmy buffett