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I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. But you will come back. I know you wrote in another thread that this time is a really bad time for you. You are getting through it safely while using a non-detrimental coping method. While it can be scary, it is better than drugs, alcohol, SI or ED. You are keeping yourself safe. I know it is scary to not know what happened in session. I have had that happen a lot (more than I would like to admit). But it will be okay. Your T remembers the session. He will hold it for you until you are ready to remember.