Well I can say i am moved by your post, I have similarities.
I guess If you are happy, then that's all that counts, but if you want to change and find a job...then i guess you can do it, as it does take time to get over hurdles of change and differences..I would say by having support from friends and family does help a lot to get you to that goal.
Baby steps i call them, just change one thing daily or weekly, to make your goals seem less stressful and scarey..