Hi Elizabeth. I'm sorry you're so confused and depressed right now. I know it can be very hard to understand and very unsettling to hear that your body acted out in a way completely opposite of anything you would normally do. The loss of time and not knowing where you go or what you do when the blackouts start, it's all a scary thing to go through alone. I'm off meds, no pdoc or t at the moment and that is by choice. I've already gotten all of the DX's I've already tried all the meds and learned the techniques to coping with this and feel it's time to move on my own path.

However, when you are first discovering that there is something going on inside, something that doesn't fit right and you're left confused and alone, a therapist and talking to the doctor is the best thing you can do. They know most of what you are experiencing and can help you to find out why and how to cope.

When it comes to dissasociative disorders, it depends on the pdoc. Make sure that you have one you can trust because we have seen too many t's and pdocs tell us before even hearing a word out of our mouth that the DID does not exist. Find one you can trust and you can start working to find the root of your memory problem and you can start learning skills to live with it or fix it whichever the case may be.