I've only had to take my prescribed dose (.5mg) of klonopin at night to sleep. Thankfully. That did cross my mind though...wondering if even that level was somehow staying in my system? But I've taken it regularly to sleep before, and I haven't lost my whole life And I definitely wan't taking any at my last session.

I am pretty positive that my kids are totally unaware that things are different for me. I tend to be really busy and productive anyway, so the behavior itself is normal...it's just the forgetting that sucks right now.

I do think that I am in a loop of staying really busy right now to not feel, and that the not feeling has me all disconnected from myself. I didn't even realize that I had lost all of those days and my session until I sat down to e-mail T...I got quiet and checked in with myself and realized...where have I BEEN?

I should probably start meditating again. Just to make that effort to check in with myself and find myself every day, for at least a little bit.

But right now, I'm off for a run.

Thank you for the responses and ideas, really truly