The Mother, I decided that may no holes be barred. it doesn't matter, you feel like a victim so this will affirm this for you.Your telling me that I was hallucinating is classic. You are at the end stage of your life so think about this and what you would like to do. The truth is you did beat the %#@&#! out of me. So did Dad but you more. There are people to validate but it doesn't matter. What do you want to do with this? Hmm? You can leave it and you will end your life and go to whatever is beyond with this.
Now neither of you can argue this though I do remember years and years ago when Patty wrote you a letter you spoke of how crazy she was. Well, Dad, you beat the crap out of me and left welts and scars. Oh mother figure, you beat the hell out of me with such hatred that I knew you loathed my having been born. I do not need a relationship with either of you. It was a sheer fluke that I allowed myself to call. I have the knowledge and the scars and you can be a victim but I am here and I know the truth and others know the truth.

I really don't know what it means that you two gave birth to me. It has felt like a very abstract thing to me. I have done well with my life, kids are well, and spouse is well. No worries.

So you decide what you can live with as I will not, can not live a lie. I know what is and was real. I am slorry that you both had so many kids close together and that it felt overwhelming. I can well imagine. It was enough handling my 4. But please remember that I did not choose to be born and resented and hated. I was born, I had nothing to do with it. By the way what is this about telling me I knew Nicole would die? She was more healthy then the other kids, how would I ever know that? My life is lived in the reality of now. I will not lie or fake it. If you want me in your lives simply say to me that you made mistakes and lets know eachother now and move on. If you don't that's fine. Unlike what the mother said to me, I am not afraid of her dying. The call was an impulse. I don't really care what you believe or what you think. I hope that you both have peace now, toward the end of your lives. I do not believe you are evil. I believe you were overwhelmed. I am not the hallucinating person you claim., Hell, that would be nice to escape for a while. So here you are with the ball in your court. My truth is my truth and I have medical scars to show for it. Damned belt left scars, bummer.

I have my life. If I can help Jason I will gladly do so. You have not a clue who we are. I want to not have hateful feelings so I will just accept from this point fore ward that history is history and you are what you are.