Fear of anything is worse than that thing itself. Of course, you can hardly say that about suicide, but the point is that you shouldn't worry too much about things that might happen. I've taking 10 mg of Zyprexa a day and it helps a lot with the suicidal thoughts. It is very likely for it to work for you as well. As for the insomnia, when I can't sleep, I don't sleep. Simple as that. I know, it's not a very good method in the long run,but...