Your welcome Helloanxiety,

When your young and your learning and growing, you are taking alot in. What is happening is you are absorbing a lot of information and your brain is working very hard. But you haven't really had a chance to allow what you have been learning to incorporate into who you are yet. And, what happens is that you are sometimes being pushed into thinking about what is next as though you have to have the answer just as you have to know what is next in what you are learning. But that is not really how it works. The truth is, you aren't going to know what is next, no one knows that. So, in socializing there is often a pressure to seem to know that and exchange it with others. That feeling of loniness and even putting out a fake smile or personality, well, that is really all you have right now. You have not really had a chance to take all this information and apply it to your own life. Ofcourse your going to feel lonely and even lost. But the important thing is that you don't think of this as what it is going to be like for the rest of your life. You are only going to learn that a step at a time as you start to use whatever it is you are learning. And you are going to change the more you get out and try to use these skills and apply them in a personal way. Not a way that everyone else does, but your own way, that way that makes you, you. And at times you will have spirts that you will want to share and then you will receed because you need more time to live it, as you.

I see this alot in the forums. Young people, in their early teens or in collage do feel lonely and they don't understand it. But the truth is they just haven't had a chance to figure out who they are yet, and for some reason they feel that this is a weakness. But it is not a weakness, it is just a part of life, growing and experiencing and it just comes with time. You don't have to conform to others at all, that actually is unhealthy, you just have to learn who you are and you do that with time.

So, at times you have to say to yourself, how do I feel about it, what do I think and let the I become important and give up the idea of conforming to the specifications of others. Because eventually you will have your own specifications and that is what is important and the more you do that the less lonely you will feel.

You are unique, and within you are your own specifications built right in. Your never going to be someone else, it is always going to be working on your own specifications. You can apply the knowledge of others and even how they operate, but it will be within your own individual skills.
And you will have questions about that, don't let that frighten you, everyone has the same questions about that. And that is a part of life, how am I going to this and that and do I even want to do this and that. It is just getting to know you and understanding it. It is like taking off the training wheels and riding a bike for the first time. Just you and that bike and finding balance and the more you do it, then the more you will enjoy the wind and that time when you dont have to peddal and can glide down a hill, but you will also pump up hills too, but once you do one hill, eh, its hard to pump, but, you know you can do it.

Open Eyes