Thanks elliemay, It is not really about what I am looking for per say. I guess I just want to understand better. I was inspired by your strength and desire to do the work as you described. So I just wanted to understand you better. I know what you mean about fear and a need for feeling safe. I do like to learn about others and how they find strength. I was also curious if you knew the reasons for your own struggles, many times people don't really know. But it sounds like you are getting help and no, life is not always a bed of roses but finding our own personal strength is important that can bring safety in itself.

Venus I don't read you blogs just your about me page a while back. And yes I have posted to one or two of your threads I don't dislike you I think that some of your questions are valid and others have the same concerns. Sometimes I find your view of thinking of a statement as a sarcasim is not taken that way, and I am not the only one to feel that. Saying "disorder" the way you have put it, can be viewed as hurtful. Those that have PTSD, dont like it and it is very hard on them. I never get sarcastic about the issues others face. And I know they are trying and I have a great respect for that, and some of them are my friends here, I have grown attached to them even if we disagree.

People who suffer with issues often do not take well to sarcasim, and they don't even understand why someone would be sarcastic about it. I tried to convey that in my last post. And I even explain why sarcasim is used and even misused. I have been around long enough to see enough. I am more concerned with finding answers and also giving credit when I agree with anothers statements or thoughts. It is called support, or just saying yes I think that too.

You cant know it all at your age Venus, your going to turn around in 25 years and realize that. I certainly don't know it all, but I have shared many of my thoughts and I have been corrected, I am willing to learn and I am also willing to try to understand.
I have an open mind and I have to say I do enjoy the input of others, and have even found comfort in that input, even if it is different than mine. I have friends that have disagreed with me here but we still like each other, they have a right to thier opinions.

Sometimes it is threads like this that create a thought provoking process that is actually pretty healthy. One of my friends here found one topic thread very stimulating and exciting, that took the day and made it more interesting. And we agreed to disagree, and it was nice actually. We are still friends and it is nice that we can disagree and still support each other.

The one thing I don't like is to harm someone here that is struggling. I don't like that at all. I do know some here are really lost and I would rather reach out and support them than dismiss them and unworthy, that would be cruel in my book, and others here feel that way too. I do ask questions so I can understand others better, I may have some advice they haven't thought of yet, I have had many thank me for taking the time, and they needed someone to take that time.
I have had that need myself and came on line and there would be a supportive message, and it really helped me that day.

I don't know you Venus, I would like to think that we can debate and learn from each other.
But I dont know you, no, not very well at all. And I clearly don't see your sarcasim, I dont really use that alot myself.

Open Eyes