she made me feel like i was a small child an that i have a wild imagination that how could i possibly have thought i would call my multiple personalities alters as a little kid but i was an inntelligant little kid an could not have made it all up with the alters an even calling them alters

i do have alters and my very first therapist embraced them an asked questions of my alters to get a better understanding of me as a person an why i behave the way i do and also my dbt leader an co-leader of my group i go to believe me that i have alters an they both made an effort to help me an work with both my alters and me ( me telling them and they doing what i feel or they feel most helpful ) an both the leader an co-leader are therapists an co leader nurse an the other nurses aide ) so if that does not prove it then what else can get through to my currents therapists dump small head that i have alters

i honestly when i was small in the orphanage i created these personalities because i did not have anyone to turn to family or non family friends or not so i needed some form of relationship with something ,something i could put my feelings out to an wont be judged an to be able to get through all the hardships an loneliness and heartbreak with some sort of human sanity an contact . and i called all the personalities alters because they were real to me like a real person, in my mind alter in my mind then showed how different the personalities were from the real me an how alot of the times during dark moments in the orphanage my alters acted as me so the real me could go to a different place mentally to a place where things were better where i would have my bio family etc to have some hope in my hardships in my non existent childhood to be able to feel an get out of the place mentally ..

so how dare my therapist belittle me an make me feel like i must be insane an not really knew the meaning of alters as a child an now how ****ing dare she my alters want the current t to hurt to make her sorry for the pain that went deep to my core to force my current t to apologize an make the fuking hell sure that she wont do it to others and she reads up on it an how to be a good therapist .

but after i terminate with my current t i will be seeing my co leader from my dbt group as a t one who understands dissociation an such an willing to work with me and my alters.