I became extremely angry a short while ago on a work related (yet also personal) issue. My anger is justified but the way I reacted isn't.
I am still shaking. I am still a little dizzy. I just wolfed down some food without chewing. The tears are still trying to squeeze out. My stomach is in knots and I have what feels like a piece of plastic wedged in my throat (probably the unchewed food). I am still breathing as if I just ran a marathon.
My head hurts. My eyeballs hurt.
The feeling of panic is overwhelming.
The issue that sparked this is so small. Yet frustratingly big to me.
Going to head off to gym which I have been trying to do for a couple of hours. Hope the exercise will tame the panic trying to break through..
Thanks for letting me vent.
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