Thanks so much Brian. I don't know if I am hurt as much as what I am frustrated. It is work I have been doing for my father-in-law for years but that is so frustrating as he just does not communicate or co-operate with me. He has no business sense and is as scatter-brained as anything so is constantly forgetting stuff. What angers me too is that he patronizes me and talks down to me as if I am a school child. He also blames me for stuff that is entirely his fault and if he had done as I had asked in the first place, would not have happened. I have even resorted to sending him stern memo's. All to no avail. He is adamant I have not mentioned stuff to him when I have put it in writing a number of times. He is a cool father-in-law but as someone to work with, he drives me to despair. I do not get paid for the work in lieu of an agreement with my husband. So because I am helping my husband I can't just chuck it in and that, is of course just what I want to do.
I just feel that I have had enough of it. My husband is fully aware of my feelings and supports me much of the time but also feels that I am overreacting at this point. He cannot handle seeing the signs of a panic attack because of something so "stupid".
I also realize my intense anger is because of fear! Fear because my husband will oneday have to support FIL and family because his poor business sense and erratic spending are destructing him and his family.
Oh boy - you asked if I wanted to talk! Well, I sure just did. I am supposed to get off to gym but I keep lingering around. And I really do have so much work to get done. I am not really helping myself here.
Thanks for listening.
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