rain i'm glad you T finely answered your question.

i was just wondering about something.i think a lot about my T and why i wanted to e-mail her instead of write her letters and have her read them in session .why did i choose e-mail.i know it is hard for me to talk to her but i can write if i want as long as i dont mail it to her .i would wonder what is the difference between even mailing it or bringing it in and having her read it if she is willing.sometimes i think it is because i think if she is reading this she is thinking of me and i exsist to her outside of that room.just wondering if some of this is mixed in for you also with the needing to e-mail.IDK just thinking.i guess for me it doesnt matter because i cant e-mail.