White noise other than a fan doesn't help. I love music but when I have it on I have to listen to it, it can't just play. Lately the fan on makes my imagination worse because I feel like it's covering up what "should" be making noise.

I thought about bringing it up to my counselor but it's not something I've been able to bring up. It really just bothers me that I am not living up to those male stereotypes that everyone loves to hate.