Maybe I will write a letter in a week or so and send it to my pdoc, so he gets it before my next appointment, so I am "forced" not to "chicken" out of telling him next time. Usually when I write a letter or send an email, at my next appointment he'll say, "I got your letter/email, so what's going on." He of course knows whats going on if he read the letter/email (and I assume he does), but he wants me to voice it as well. So I have to be completely honest, since he already knows what I wrote. I don't feel comfortable emailing that I might need to see a T for my scab picking, so I will write a letter. It would be great to get my pdoc's input on whether or not he thinks I need a T to work through my issues or if it is something else that can be solved with medication or it I would need a little of both. I've been seeing him for almost 3 years, so I trust his judgement/opinion on most issues. He's not one to just slap medication on. When he found out I was hearing voices, he wanted to wait another month before increasing my antipsychotic to see if the voices were just temporary stressed induced. He only increased it because I said I doubted they were from stress because I had been hearing them for months. So, I know his solution to this "new" issue will not automatically be "Oh you need this medicine." Unless he really feels that it would help me.

I'm scared at the idea of going to a T. I've never been one to openly talk about my issues with others. If I am "shy" and don't say much, how can a T really help me? But if my pdoc tells me it would be beneficial, I am willing to give it a try.