Hey lastyearisblank,

it sounds like you have a fear of opening up, maybe of being vulnerable or of what others will think. It is your defensiveness that tells the lies to your T or who dodges the truth. It's your way of thinking you are protecting yourself and so many people do it.

Can I ask what made you attend therapy in the first place? I am just wondering if it was your decison or if someone else pushed you into it? Because if you attended of your own free will its because you believed talking to someone would help...but something happened when you went to the sessions that your defensives went up and it's stopping you getting what you want. Often a client will be defensive if they did not want to attend therapy and were pushed into it.

Have you been able to talk to your therapist about your fears of being open with her?

*huge hugs*

Diz xxx