An email to my T after my appt today: I am beyond frustrated at my lack of answers at todays appt as I am sure you are done hearing me talk about this. Perhaps I need to call it quits on my marriage. Maybe C really does repulse me??? And I"m afraid to admit it. What does that then make me? An evil ***** I'm afraid. I do love him - but do I really know what healthy love is?
I oscilate sp? In a matter of moments: "stupid geez of course you love him!" To " how come you don’t want to have sex with him? if you do realy love him. Isn't that what people do in a healthy relationship? I feel like a horrible human being right now who is thinking about dumping the nice guy who has been the best thing ever for me. Then to discover at a later date how foolish I really am. I want off this ride NOW!!!!!!!!!
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"Be careful how you speak to your children. One day it will become their inner voice." - Peggy O'Mara
Don't ever mistake
MY SILENCE for ignorance,
MY CALMNESS for acceptance,
MY KINDNESS for weakness.
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