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Sweetheart, you need to get help immediately. You don't have to suffer from this pain. On the homepage of this website, there is a message for anyone who is feeling suicidal. You can use that link or call your local suicide helpline or crisis line. My best advice, though, is that you go right now to the emergency room and tell them how you're feeling and that you've been cutting.

You would be surprised how much better you can feel with therapy and/or medication, so PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF!
Your life is precious, and you deserve to live it to its fullest!