I realize now that it was my mental illness acting up.

I was an entirely other woman that night.

And right now I am feeling this way again because it's that time of the month.

it was then, too.

So my bpd and my pms---together.

OMG.

This month I will ride it out.

And take extreme care not to act on it or see it as something that is me. It's not.

Billi