You have the right to feel however you want/need to feel, It seems to me an i could be wrong but, This guy obviously made a huge impact on you when you were younger, what ever happened between him an your mum to cause the split ment that you suffered the loss of a dad. Now with everything your facing im not surprised your confused. A peice of the world you held close has just been tiped upside down. Hope you find the surport you need here at PC.

holly