Hello

Although I wasn't abused as a child I was raped as a child on one occassion by someone who I didn't know. I only remembered this years later as I had blanked it out of my memory... I also thought I was going crazy when I started to recall what had happened. I thought I was disgusting for making these stories up and hated my self. I am now only just starting to allow myself to deal with what had happened but am now dealing with horrific nightmares and waking up screaming; being extremely distracted in the day (unless I am doing exhaustive exercise) having intrusive thoughts of what happened. I feel very teary and sad and feel like I won't ever be able to function properly again. When it all came back to me I too had a breakdown but then I pushed it to the back of my mind again and now I am broaching the trauma I feel like I'm going to fall off the edge again. I understand what you went through must have been 10x worse than what I went through but it seems many of the reactions are similar. I can't offer advice as I too need it but I hope it helps knowing that the reactions to what happened must be normal ones. I'm sprry I couldn't have been of more help but if you need to talk about anything I am always happy to listen.