Hey There PL,
I just recently realized that what I go through periodically has to do with my having OCD, but I only have the intrusive repetitive thoughts; no compulsions, just the obsessions. Sounds like you are similar.
I see a therapist and suggest you try it out if you still have not. Do not be ashamed by your thoughts. They are only thoughts. They do not reflect you or your reality.

I read a book recently that I highly recommend called The Imp Of The Mind by Lee Baer, PHd. It deals with exactly what we go through when we deal with unwanted/intrusive/obsessive thoughts. There are exercises that you can try to help you with this. One type is the "exposure" type and the other is a Cognitive Therapy Approach.

I found that just ordering the book helped ease some of my anxiety. Once I read it, I was very glad I had ordered it. There is another book called White Bears and Other Unwanted Thoughts by Daniel M. Wegner that I haven't finished reading yet. This book explores more about the reasons we have these thoughts but learning in itself can be theraputic.

Last but not least, I have begun taking Zoloft for depression, which happens to also get prescribed for OCD. It's been 2 weeks now and today I started noticing a marked difference. I'd say my obsessive thoughts have been reduced about 90%. I don't get this way that often, but I have been dealing with alot of environmental stress lately, as have you with your bosses. I notice this is when my thoughts turn obsessive. I swaer it's almost like an avoidance thing for me... I don't want to think about the bad situation that is real so I focus on ridiculous things instead, like worrying I will curse at people or say rude things to strangers. Worry that if I don't do everything PERFECTLY people will die or lose their jobs, etc etc ETC!!!

Don't suffer in silence. You will only end up back in the hospital again. There are many people like us, and many more who will not admit they have this problem because it embarrasses them so much. You're not alone! Good luck!