I may have been 10 or even 11, I don't remember but I know it was scary because I was afraid the matches wouldn't go out even though I know my brother really didn't want to burn me. I KNOW that for a fact. But this experience doesn't explain my intense need for my T, does it? It's not so much that I need to discuss it with her, but I need to feel that she's comforting me and that we're connected. Most of today's session was with my eyes closed. That didn't help me feel connected at all!