(((( Rainbow ))))

Oh the frustration and desperation.....I totally understand how you'd want to focus on your relationship and feelings about T because they are so incredibly intense...and you want to get to the other side of this (but are afraid of losing that closeness with T, at the same time)....

You've gotten some great feedback here....and I especially agree with the idea that you are not losing T by focusing on other things in therapy. As frustrating as that is for you, it's helping you.

Maybe you can talk to T about setting aside a certain amount of time in your sessions so you can get what you need from T while still addressing other things...

(((( HUGS ))))