I feel so bad because I care for him very much but I know now that I'm not IN LOVE with him anymore . I do love him & feel he is a good man for SOMEONE ELSE. We fight go back together , fight go back together. We have been trying to keep this relationship going and it always ends up in another battle over something new. I can't keep going through this so I told him enough is enough and I haven't had any contact with him since. He sends me emails,messages, calls , leaves things at my door step and it is driving me insane. apart of me wants to give in because I don't want to hurt him but apart of me wants to move on because I can't take it anymore. It's not all him...I have my issues and that is why I feel I need to go my own way. how do I learn to shut my feelings off ? how do I not hurt him? he calls and leaves very very sad messages of how much it hurts him that I won't talk to him ..he doesn't like my friends nor does he want me to have any. I just want to move on . I don't want to be with anyone else I just want to breath ..I care for him so much but we just cant be together it isn't healthy for either of us...can someone please help me???. I pray everyday he isn't hurting and will someday realize it is for the best. The reason I have decided on No Contact is because he is so good about making me feel like dirt , he tells me I don't want to try , he didn't or doesn't do anything wrong, He tells me I have more time for my friends than I do him, I just want to breath and relax it is all so stressful to keep going over and over and over it again ...I hope their is someone out there who can help me ...maybe it is me ...please help..Am I wrong for deciding this relationship is poison for me..I know he loves me but sometimes love just isn't enough. I want to laugh again I have been feeling so drained . I work hard and I'm tired and this is just awful...