I'm glad I posted this ... not glad that you guys struggle with situations, but I think it helps to know that other people have the same thoughts you do and keep them hidden.

Tattoogirl ... you have no idea how alike we are!! I too have slept with my share of men AND women looking for them to want me. Married men, single men, random strangers ... omg!! And yes, after it's all said and done, I hate myself for it. I will let you know though that it can get better and you will eventually work through it and love yourself just enough to not need them to want you. Hang in there!! It took me years, and I'm finally in a better place ... you can get there too!! *hugs*