last night wasnt so much a date as it was just having dinner with a friend, even though it was just the 2 of us. Ive never gone on a date before. The thing is Im scared to even think if this is what I think it is because I dont want a lightbulb to go off and for me to realise the possible truth, because its VERY rare for me to like a guy, and even rarer for them to like me, so Ill feel overwhelmingly rejected. Being unwanted and rejected is actually a trigger for me from being neglected growing up.