I’m alright I guess, a bit tired and triggery but otherwise okay.

I am afraid to go there. I’ve been so self sufficient all these years that relying on someone for something this big seems almost ridiculous. I know I need to get used to it but whenever I get “too close” to someone I end up withdrawing myself from them. I’m scared to get too close and end up relying on them. That’s exactly how I feel with my T. I don’t want to have to call her up in the middle of the night to talk or help with urges. I’m so used to dealing with it myself it’s like I’ll be giving up some kind of power.

I gave in. I couldn’t handle everything anymore.