Wisewoman,
I'm so sorry for how you have been hurt and are still being hurt.
This is also said for me too---- Please try to see that when you feel like trash or dirty now, you are continuing your mother's power over you---- take back that power by telling yourself you are a beautiful, loving and worthy person.
I understand that doubt -- the worry that people think I'm a liar. I think what your T. was saying is that just because there are 10 different versions..... doesn't mean any one of them are wrong. We all feel and perceive things in different ways-- that doesn't mean anyone is wrong!
I hope for you that you believe in your truth and can give yourself power to deal with it in a healing way.
Thinking of you.
mandy