Welcome to psych central (((katrinazoe)) You've come to a good place in your life!

I'm sorry you are experiencing this suffering. There are resources and disorder tabs at the top of the page... have you looked up what you think?

It's never good to diagnose yourself...but good to wonder when things don't feel "right" imo
I'm surprised your partner has been so observant...but consider this a good thing.

Please don't turn your life off... sometimes feeling "small" reflects on a situation we are going through that we feel unable to control...

Come back and post often! Again, welcome.