Sooo... My fiance's cousin decided last week that since his friend was traveling to the midwest, he'd join and come to visit us. He got here on Saturday after only a few days notice. That was all fine and good. My fiance got really excited that he was coming, which made me happy because my fiance has been super depressed about work lately. And since the apartment wasn't too messy, I didn't even have much anxiety about the whole thing.

The first few days were great! The day after he got here, we went to a brewery and the two boys really enjoyed themselves. Monday I had to work, but the evening was also good. Yesterday was okay. I was volunteering at NAMI in the morning, and he decided to tag along since he always has some mental health issues (which we bonded over the past few days). I didn't even mind waiting for him while he spoke the the director of my NAMI branch for a good half hour after I finished my volunteer work. The three of us went bowling last night and had a good time. He's been complimenting my cooking, helping out with dishes and trash -- he's really not a bad house guest.

But today, omg, I'm just done. I'm stuck home alone all day with him. And he has this way of talking out loud to himself, and not just like musing quietly, but in a loud enough voice that at first I thought he wanted a response from me. It makes it hard for me to think/read. And I don't think he's showered yet today because he's a little smelly, and I'm just sick of the cigarette smoke lingering in my apartment. He goes outside to smoke, and usually puts on this aromatherapy lotion afterwards which really helps, but every so often I just get a strong whiff of cigarette smoke, which I've always been sensitive to because my dad had extreme asthma and we have always completely avoided smokers.

And then last night, after my fiance went to bed he went outside to smoke. He ended up talking to these girls that live in my apartment building that he's been saying are hot for a few days. I guess they're going to leave a note on my fiance's car for my fiance's cousin about hanging out sometime before he leaves (around next Tuesday... Nothing set in stone...). I guess, I just feel a little weird about this. And honestly, I guess the part that is bothering me a little is the leaving the note on my fiance's car. I really couldn't tell you why, and it's not even bothering me that much. It really doesn't bother me that he wants to hang out with/hook up with these girls.

Honestly... I think I'm just ready to have my space back. And I miss my cat -- he's been hiding under the bed since the cousin got here and only comes out to cuddle and roam around the house when the cousin goes to bed.

I'm not really looking for advice or anything, I really just needed to vent a little. I do feel better after typing all that out. Thanks everyone