oh 2B I am so trying. Talking with that woman confuses me so much. And then trying to add that; "the others" think the same as she does, meaning sibs. I really didn't think I was nuts. I know at one time or another each sib has admitted to horrid abuse. I also know they do what they can to have family but with many of them living within a 5 mile radious they seldom see eachother or even speak. twice a year mostly. I can't understand or begin to explain how this is hurting. I feel like S.I. I will not because my head knows that is not the path that is healthy. She is such a stinkin little victim! Thanks for caring and please know I am hurting so badly right now. I don't understand it all but I suddenly am way fearful and feel unsafe with T. OLD, OLD crap. Please everyone surround me in love and protection.