Oh June, I am so very sorry. That happened to my mother's mother and all her mother's things (she was an only child) were taken and she never got her mother's things, and she was very posessive of her things.

I have come to know that family can be very cruel when it comes to estates and money.

I am not so sure that having the things that were in your past would have truely been a comfort to you because of the relationship you had with your mother. And that money you did receive and what it represented, it was not something you could accept, I cant blame you for that. It was attached to a person who denied you and now I understand why nothing you bought with it made you happy. Material things cannot replace something denied.

But June, you have to love yourself, please don't deny yourself because of what your mother denied you. It was not that you were not worthy, it was her issue and you suffered for it. You must realize that deep within you. If you can do that, and others here have, you can be your own best friend.

So you have something to work on June, learning how to love yourself and not let your mothers issues be what determines your life. You just don't deserve that and I am willing to bet that you are the best of the bunch as if those sisters had any decency, they would have not snuck around you the way they did. Those actions of theirs will never change, they will own those actions for eternity. Just remember that. Anything that they got, they wont really enjoy June, because deep inside them, they will know just how they did it. So in reality, you are the better, I know you dont see that and yet somehow you do by the fact that you don't really want what you did get from your mother's death. And it is not that you never deserved it either. No, you have to give to yourself, and that means allow yourself to appreciate yourself, you learned a lesson, but that lesson is not your fault. The real curse or punishment will lie in the minds of the others that took and betrayed. You are the better. Let it go, it isn't worth the trouble and I think deep inside you know that. And you are not like them, your better.

Open Eyes