Well, I wonder what you have talked to the therapist about, have you given her history of yourself and the issues that you may feel that could be PTSD?

You know I didn't even know what PTSD really was until it was given to me as a diagnosis and even then I didn't really understand it and what it meant. I have taken time out to try to understand it and as I do understand it I wonder why no one ever told me I had it before. I sure have talked about many of the symptoms that are clear red flags that would tell a therapist what it was that I was trying to deal with.

I am not even sure therapists really know all the demensions of it and it has really come about not only by the fact that many of our servicemen were experiencing it and it became a concern to society as they continued to experience great difficulty readusting back into society after coming home from war. But it as more and more people came forward with complaints of extreme stress and flashbacks and depression and all the other aspects of this thing called PTSD that it became more prevalent.

But there are those that misuse this disorder both patients and therapists. I do know that therapists don't have a full proof treatment for this yet, they are trying but many things are experimental and they are exploring and practicing.

I think that the therapist you are talking to probably has heard enough about it and may be somewhat jaded. And if you have it, then this is not the therapist for you, not if she going to deny it. Oh the patient does that enough all on their own. The whole point to even getting therapy for it is to try to not only understand it but to try to find a way to deal with it. Well, you can't run from it that is for sure, it just catches up with you and hits you really hard if something bad happens. Oh then it really grabs you.

I have a new therapist and he is pretty worried about me he knows that I have it pretty bad and he has already told me that it will get worse if I dont try to treat it and it is going to take time and therapy for me to come to terms with it. He also understands that the situation I am in is aggrivating it and so it is going to be pretty hard for me to do some of the work.

I come to PC because quite frankly I don't want to look at it anymore. I live with it and I have to be in it and I don't want to think about it but unfortunately I have no choice, I have to see things everyday that I still have to deal with and so I come here. I want to to think about here and I do not what think about what I look at everyday.

And no one can tell me its not real, because I know thats not true, but I would like to think it isn't real. I would like to wake up one morning and think it was all a dream. But I wake up because I have had a bad dream about it, oh it happens as soon as my medication wears off.

So, depending on your past, a therapist that has that attitude would be a waste of your time in my opinion. I would rather be with a therapist that truely understands it and that the patient that has it is trying their best to learn how to deal with it.

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