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(JD) · Jun 23, 2011, 12:42 AM

Well I've come up for air once again. Thanks to all who support me.

We're throwing all the books at me

and some of it actually sticks.

I'm a complicated person perhaps? I am progressing... it's just so difficult to see where I was as opposed to where I feel I "should" (gasp ) be... where I want to be. It's terribly difficult to heal when the abuse continues...and it does by way of the lawyers and the system itself.

Part of my PTSD is that those who "should have" acted upon my behalf did nothing! So when the system promotes that same effect (or any place, even here at PC) ...when I get the sense that way... then I'm triggered. Not to mention the actual idea of the fear of being injured more/again in thunderstorms etc.

One foot in front of the other.

I think also that the pain disorder promotes so much bad in my life... ruining my sleep routines (if I ever get them to be routine!) and eating patterns.. you know what I mean? My whole life gets tossed in the air all the time, or at least it feels that way, and at those points in time I have to stop and drop anything and everything and focus totally on managing my pain, stress etc., nothing else. (though I sneak into PC

to help distract myself.)