OMG i am such a wreck i cant stop crying.i left work early saying i was sick and wasnt comming in tomorrow.i think of my worst day emotionally and this is far worse.i'm realy just not able to function.i just want to get in my car and dissapear.but instead im going to go see my primary care doc and see if i can get something to calm me down.i dont know what to do i am so so so lost and scared.is anything ever going to get better.my husband may go talk to the people at work.how humiliating is that.all i have is pc and right now i just so wish all of you were here in real life because i dont think just being here is enough.my husband has no idea how bad things have gotten and i have to tell him tomorrow .i'm scared of that also