1. There's a voice in my head who tells me i'm worthless and undeserving. She makes up stories about my bf and has broken us up 3 times.
2. I was molested as a child by my older brother who i have forgiven and continue to have a relationship with. ( he doesn't know i know,i pretended to remain asleep)
3. There's a year of my life thats blank,missing. I can't recall anything despite having an impeccable mem0ry. ( i think this is the time i was molested as it was a repressed memory i only recalled many years later during therapy)
4. Everybody thinks i'm this highly respectable young lady, i've had my share of sexual encounters,only now can i see it was the bipolar.
5. I secretly loath myself, i don't know why.
6. I've fantasized about death since my early teens and always wished it upon myself.
7. I don't think i'm a real parent,or a very go0d one at that. My mum helps ALOT.
FEAR:
1. I'm scared of ending up alone.
2. I'm scared of being possessed by a demon while psychotic.
3. I'm scared of leaving my mums house,even tho i want to have a future with my bf.
4. I'm scared i'll fail my bf as a partner.
5. I'm scared of giant roaches and crustaceans.
6. I'm scared my bf will see the freak i am an run.
7. I'm scared i'm failing my daughter as a parent.
WOW... Honesty feels good. Thanks for posting this thread.