jazzy, thanks for asking. I got busy and didn't have time to update! I wish I could have taken WePow's advice, but I didn't. It worked out well, though. I NEEDED to talk to my T and get reassurance that nothing changed between us. I talked to her last night and she told me that. I told her how I felt and she said, no, she wasn't rejecting me, and yes, she still likes me very much. That helped. She did say that she is going to keep trying to get me to find happiness in RL and not have her be so important. She's not going to stop doing that. But, I asked again (I ask her over and over) and told her I'm afraid she'll "take away" holding my hand. She said no, she won't. I asked if we can still go on walks and she said yes.

So, it seems like I read into her behavior and words something that wasn't there. She hasn't changed. She still knows how important she is to me, and that's okay. But the focus has to be on me and how she can help me. I still fight against that, but I know it has to be that way and I am grateful for her firmness about it.

We talked about my brother too. She thinks my relationship with him and his behavior had a big influence on me.

So, I felt better and calmer after the phone call and emailed to tell her that--later. I wish I didn't need her to calm me down, but we both agreed that the session ended too abruptly. I could have gotten that reassurance at the time, but she had someone coming and we had to stop. Usually there is more time at the end. It's not that she didn't want to hug me, either. We talked on the phone about 30 minutes! One thing I like about her is that she doesn't want to hang up after a few minutes like my former T. She used to tell me I was manipulating her when I called. I am SO, SO grateful that I switched Ts and found the one I see now.

Thanks, everyone. Not sure if I will respond individually--I'll try.