Thanks everybody.

I think that the hatred, anger, whatever it is you want to call it, comes from what I've been told about them and what they've done to me and my dad.

When my dad was younger, his parents, brothers, basically his whole family deserted him and wasn't there for him. His oldest brother, my uncle that I can stand, was the only one there for him. I think that's why I can't stand his side of the family.

My mom doesn't really care about me.
My sister tells me she wants me to disappear and die.
I think that's where these feelings come from.