I'm tired of having to play "mommy" with everyone else. I'm tired of having to cancel my plans to babysit my brother just because my Dad wants to do stuff until 9pm at night. I'm tired of being relied on. I'm tired of having to cater to my friend's emotions, having to give advice and reassure people that they're okay, they're good, they're this and that and blah blah blah. I'm tired of people looking at me like I'm mature, like I'm good and innocent and responsible. I'm tired of people seeing me as a victim, or that I'm just so strong to have been able to put up with things that I'm not even putting up with anymore. I'm tired of people saying "you don't have a mom? oh you poor thing.." when really, I'm not a poor thing.. I chose to not have her in my life.. Hate me for it.. I'm a horrible daughter who refuses to see her mom.. That deserves some kind of.. insult doesn't it?

I'm tired of the bias I receive.. I'm tired of being myself. I'm literally tired of my own personality. I'm tired of who I am and how I live my life. I find myself absolutely irritating and I find how everyone else thinks of me as irritating..