Thank you so much ((Indie)). Talking definitely does help. My T has told me that when we avoid something for so long it makes it feel so big and the longer we take to address it, it can take on a life of its own and make it that much harder to address. I guess it's taken me three years to be brave enough to want to say it out loud. I feel a little bit of relief after reading your post.

And to Sannah and Granite much love back! I don't know what I would do without you all.